Do you have regrets? (Day #19)
I’ve been asked this question many times. I always struggle to answer it.
“If you could do it again, what choices you’ve made would you change?”
The reason why it is difficult for me to answer is that I rarely have regrets about the decisions I made. I’ve never second guessed myself. It’s probably in my nature.
I’ve always been a very impulsive kid. I learned early on that I had to live with the consequences of my actions. The thing is, I’ve always done what I wanted, so it was only fair that I lived up to the consequences.
I think life is short so it’s important to make choices that you enjoy. Some of them have been a disaster, I won’t say they were wise or remotely sane, but I made them because I enjoyed it, even if it was for a moronic reason.
I’m a strange person. I’ve always known what I like and what I don’t like. I’ve come to believe most people aren’t like that. Most people don’t know what they like or worse, what they don’t like. For me it was always very clear. If it makes me unhappy, I won’t do it. Full stop. I’m very stubborn on that point.
Yes I know, every job, work or experience has some part of ugliness to it. I’m not talking about that. I don’t mind doing some dirty work. Nevertheless, I do have an issue when everything in the job is like that. Then I will just drop it and move on.
When I like something, I know. It’s immediate; it’s instant. As I said before, I’m an emotional person, but it comes with its perks. When I give into something, I go all in. Even if it’s wrong, I’ll just go for it. I’ve learned to trust my instincts, to listen to my inner voice. So far so good. It means, though, that I had to be consequent with my actions.
I guess I owe my parents for teaching me to be like that. Since I was little, they always allow me to make my own decisions. Even when it meant getting myself in trouble. Their only rule was, hey you take that chance, but you are responsible for the outcome.
So, would I take different choices? I don’t think so. I’ve always said that all things considered, if I had to choose again, I would do the same. After all, how would I choose differently if I would be the same person, with the same experiences and limited knowledge.
Every step I’ve taken in my life has always been worth it. I’ve learned so much from everything I’ve done. Why would I change it? I wouldn’t be me then, I would be a different person, and I like who I am.
I can improve, I can be a better person, but that’s for the future, not the past.